I dislike not meeting the expectations I have set for myself.

I am in control and I am very certain of everything I do. I grow more content with what I am and have everyday, but I feel like I am missing a piece of this puzzle; I just can not figure out which one it is.

Oh the endless possibilities.

I want more people to visit me.

I am getting really excited for this whole moving out thing :)

I'm falling back into old habits and I am more than okay with it.

Option One: Find my own place. 
Option Two: Wait until March and move to Illinois with April.
Option Three: Do nothing.

I hate my school and I am not going back next semester. I don't know if I am just going to wait it out a semester and find somewhere else or just not go back again until I want too. I also do not like coming home anymore. There is nothing wrong with my parents, but I am not happy when I come home. I avoid it, I feel like I should be gone, and with recent events my normal dislike and disdain for my brother has increased a lot, to the point where it is effecting my already poor sleeping habits.

SO

There is option one. I want my own place, and I am at the point where I have given up on finding a room mate. I am to picky and whatever. I can afford it and could probably make it happen by around Christmas. However it would cost a lot of money that I could be saving up for something or other.

Then Option two. April is the best boss ever, except for maybe Jakki. It would most likely lead to another promotion, more money, and maybe even getting my own store to run. Id have my own place + the more money. Maybe even April as a room mate (but that'd have to be on the super d/l.) There is also that whole getting away aspect. Downsides, do I really want to get that much more involved with Qdoba? Its almost like a deathtrap for that whole, once you get in you can't get out deal. Then the whole getting away thing can backfire. It'd be moving me farther away for what few friends i have left. It would be a metric fuckton of work since opening new stores is a bitch.

Option Three. Same old same old. Im not really good at sitting around hoping I start to feel better about stuff, even if it is the smartest move. I'd save money, probably save friends, keep the parents happy i am sure, the problem is that I am not very happy. I don't have any major issues that cause this; my life is pretty mild and I don't pretend my issues are serious or should be a priority for anyone else, but I also don't have anyone depending on me for their happiness so I think I should focus on mine. The major downfall of the other two options is they could super backfire and make me more crabby, but the major downfall of option three is that one of those could be a good option.

Oh and I want me an Adorable. Then'd id just make them make my decisions for me.

 I am now seriously debating trying to talk April into taking me with her.

 Sorry. You will just have to accept the fact that I will not be changing how I act about this situation because I am selfish and I want your friendship to last a long time unlike the previous ones.